The lasts days involved me to a sort of identity crisis, as if every signs of joy from yore are just illusional, or that I need to seriously grow up, if at age 41 and still staying with my parents, (Not by choice) it's likely that some decisions have to be done when I known already that my twenties period are over and never will return.
My passion for drawings went to a definitive end. That... just don't made sense in the reality of now. Drawings have to staying for children only. If you are a grown-up, better to found something more usual for not be look to the internet people at a childish loser.
Comics pages keep to be a chore of too much since the past three years, with tons of projects that went nowhere. While I do mine's before, that have to do with structure. Or that I never went myself to formula or repetition. It does happening me on current times and because I can't trust the real-life industry that have never step in supermarkets or foods service, this is likely over with it.
Because in drawings, you have to know to drawn lots of things: For example, the galloping of a horse. A villain who grab a pistol from its hands. (Even if guns in cartoons is strictly allowed for over a mid-century now) A character who do dance or have to rid of termites/ants/rodents. These are the basics of what fictional works are by-and-large based of life and don't just consists of characters to "stand still" and endlessly speaking to others in every scenes.
Today, a cynical industry that make lecture to people sours the trust we could have with the biggest stars and influences of our planet. The late Grammy Awards have seen one singer-artist where I can enjoyed, Billie Eillish, to be stuck onto her wealthiest and fame by do lecturing the audience about the Indians grounds we have stolen and... Can't she just give us a break?
She does the same grating bit last fall by brag the wealthiest people to give their money to the people in need, but HER, will she do the same? You know what it may costs in tickets to seen her in concert?
This is a sign of that mistrust with the artists and their unconnection with the "ordinary world". The world that I met everydays at home or where I work.
The world of luxury have many things to learn to the ordinary world like shown respect, empathy and shut the hell up instead to preach the people for things they've already know.
Be in my forties went with newer turns of changes in my behavior. I am no longer naive like in my twenties but I am too younger again for get the pressures and reality that concerns the generation of my parents.
Saying that drawings came with practice seems to be not enough. It's very difficult to make it right, let alone to master it. That went with lots of discipline, knowledge of the art you practice for and known the people who went before you. The ones who just care of their ass and egos have no place there. You have to make collaboration with others creators and if you are lucky enough, make paid commissions in Patreon when that may help you to pay the bills.
The reality is if you wanna be serious with your art, you have to known how commissions works. Or else, what is exactly the point to do it?
This what make me problematic for too long. I've known lots of people and acquaitances online to do it with varied degrees of success. Why I never do it? And if ever I will do, I have to not repeat the same trashy mistakes like years ago to waste my hard-earned money to please one scammer's greed.
The only credit I could myself given in is that the fursona Christine Livingstone-Jonas was claimed like a "true star" for have surviving for many years in any spin-offs. But that was it for this. My minimalistic artstyle has passed its prime long before I known it. That is also parts why every projects are abandonned for prosperity.
Leaving drawings and learn to "get with times" would be the best policy. That may explain why some of my friends leaving the childish world of DeviantArt before all that went a chaotic mess like it is today.
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